Motivation

This morning I went through some old clothes and pulled out a few pairs of pants, each in a different size. They are my motivation pants. Sometime in the next couple weeks I'm going to take pictures of me in each of these pairs of pants, and trust me, the 2 smaller sizes will not be pretty. But I need to have a record of what I look like, not being able to get those pants on and how it feels. Then, when the DO fit (and eventually are too big) I can look back and see how far I came and compare the feelings. It's hard to believe that these pants fit me at one time. I know I've gained weight over the years, I've seen the numbers on the scale increase. But since I've been overweight my entire life, it's like I can't see the difference - I just see fat. Don't get me wrong, I look back at high school and early college years pics and can definitely see the weight gain. In my head though, my body image is still the same. What do they call that? Body dysmorphic somethingorother. Whatever it is, I know it's a HUGE issue I have to deal with in order to be successful.