Friday, December 12, 2008
Motivation
This morning I went through some old clothes and pulled out a few pairs of pants, each in a different size. They are my motivation pants. Sometime in the next couple weeks I'm going to take pictures of me in each of these pairs of pants, and trust me, the 2 smaller sizes will not be pretty. But I need to have a record of what I look like, not being able to get those pants on and how it feels. Then, when the DO fit (and eventually are too big) I can look back and see how far I came and compare the feelings. It's hard to believe that these pants fit me at one time. I know I've gained weight over the years, I've seen the numbers on the scale increase. But since I've been overweight my entire life, it's like I can't see the difference - I just see fat. Don't get me wrong, I look back at high school and early college years pics and can definitely see the weight gain. In my head though, my body image is still the same. What do they call that? Body dysmorphic somethingorother. Whatever it is, I know it's a HUGE issue I have to deal with in order to be successful.
Tuesday, December 9, 2008
What does your weight do for you?
I came across this question when looking for some weight loss inspiration and it really got me thinking. What does my weight do for me right now?
It holds me back from doing things I want to do.
It lets me hide.
It gives me an excuse not to do things.
It lets me get away with comfort eating- I'm already fat so what's it going to hurt?
It allows me to be the introvert that I am - I just try to hide and not have to deal with people I don't know.
It allows me to fail - It gives me an excuse as to why I don't do anything with my life.
I also came across the couch to 5k program. I've seen it several times, but always thought, not me. I'll never do that, even if I lose the weight. Well, why the hell not? See, that's just using the excuse not to do things.
I think I'm getting ready to maybe finally do it this time. It's like I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about losing weight, how I can do it, what I need to do, etc. So I'm going to post more and hope we can all keep each other motivated. I've got some more posts lined up, but I've always been so bad at blogging we'll see if I actually get them up, LOL!
Oh, and you guys should post a list answering that question I started with. Good or bad, what does your weight do for you?
It holds me back from doing things I want to do.
It lets me hide.
It gives me an excuse not to do things.
It lets me get away with comfort eating- I'm already fat so what's it going to hurt?
It allows me to be the introvert that I am - I just try to hide and not have to deal with people I don't know.
It allows me to fail - It gives me an excuse as to why I don't do anything with my life.
I also came across the couch to 5k program. I've seen it several times, but always thought, not me. I'll never do that, even if I lose the weight. Well, why the hell not? See, that's just using the excuse not to do things.
I think I'm getting ready to maybe finally do it this time. It's like I'm CONSTANTLY thinking about losing weight, how I can do it, what I need to do, etc. So I'm going to post more and hope we can all keep each other motivated. I've got some more posts lined up, but I've always been so bad at blogging we'll see if I actually get them up, LOL!
Oh, and you guys should post a list answering that question I started with. Good or bad, what does your weight do for you?
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